Sunday, 29 November 2009


Lonely Lolita
Originally uploaded by amorvill

& I find that I'm never alone
& I find that my heart is my home
& the music within makes me whole
A world that I built on my own

& I know that I'm never alone
& I know that my heart is my home
Every missing piece of me
I can find in a melody

'Melody' - Kate Earl

This song always makes me think of the Lolita fashion.

It's really odd that I'd listen to something like this (Typically I listen to rock music) but then again, no one would really think I secretly love beautiful dresses either!

Why is it we are drawn to Victorian parasols, poofy petticoats, and (sometimes) have impulsions to wear cakes on our heads?

Is 'Lolita' in our DNA? Was it destiny to find this fashion/lifestyle?
I guess Lolita is a sort of 'escape'. I find even just wearing a rose ring, or maybe just a blouse can make getting through the day just that little bit easier.
I recently bought a new umbrella, it was very very cheap, but beautiful and countless amounts of people commented on it. It was black, with roses on it with a ruffle trim, and I was so glad when in the morning going into school it was raining so I had an excuse to use it.

Many people stared, some people smiled, one of my friends said it "made her day". I'm generally a shy person, and don't particularly like attention, but walking along with that pretty umbrella held over my head... It felt good. I felt like I could do anything and no one would ruin my day.

How is it that Lolita does this?

To quote LoliGirls it is "Looking at that flower on the sidewalk - not the broken sidewalk".
For you is 'Lolita fashion' exactly that - a fashion. Or does it make you feel more?

Maybe someday you'll get told to "grow up", but it's not hurting anyone, and if it makes you happy then it's surely a good thing...

So put on those ruffles, place a cupcake on your head if you so wish (although I'm more partial to Gothic myself) and go step out into your kingdom.

And remember you are never alone.


Princess Roxy

Thursday, 26 November 2009

Let's Go To Dreamland...

Where do you think we go when we're asleep and dreaming?

I'm really fascinated by the idea of sleep... Especially REM sleep. Dreaming is a part of what keeps us healthy, help us put everything that has happened to us throughout the day in order.

But do you think that all we are is asleep in our beds?

Or do we visit a dreamland? Or somewhere else?

I think our souls leave our body while we're sleeping... Is that why we awake with a gasp and feel like we've been thrown onto the bed from a Nightmare? Our soul had to be very suddenly returned to the body. In which case is a coma where the body is still living but the soul is visiting elsewhere?...

But where do we go? To a sort of Neverland? Heaven?

Sleeping is a form of escapism - I know I tend to sleep alot more when I don't want to face the world. The dreamland seems alot more desirable than life - you can do anything! Fly, be famous, have anything you like...

You can reach that tangible heaven-like place, the magic. Suddenly you are in charge of all and everything. But maybe it is something more? It may be more than just dreaming of that perfect dress you want for christmas, or dreaming of someone you want as a boyfriend... Maybe we leave our bodies and visit the place of the after-life?

But what is this after-life? Is there even such a thing? I hope there is a nice place after death. Possibly 'Heaven', possibly not. I'd like Heaven to be the Sun. That'd explain the "I see the light" cliche...

Hm, that sounds quite good. The Sun is full of our souls... The centre of our galaxy... Could that be Heaven?

Anything is possible - especially in your dream-wonderland...

What do you think?

Princess Roxy


Tuesday, 24 November 2009

Dance With Me

"I watch the moon gliding on the dark clouds above me and
Playing beneath my toes as I dance past silver pools.
The enticing tune leads me further from home, I feel the
Haunting tune right in my bones and I shiver at its beauty.

I dip gracefully under the rope secluding the dark wonderland
That keeps drawing and drawing me closer. The blazing candles
Cast multiples of my shadows that happily dance with me.
The light tune of a cello is brushed along the breeze.

The carousel turns slowly and I am drawn towards it in a trance.
The horses with gilded manes and tails of burnished bronze
Are calling to me, they want to dance with me in the moonlight.
I glide gently in my Mary Janes and mount a ghostly steed.

The eerie tune still plays in my ears as the wind plays in my hair
And I can feel your spirit watching me from afar in the shadows.
I dismount and wander towards the ferris wheel, where the
Ghost-like melody still lingers around me as I enter a gondola.

Whispers on the wind call to me, and I hear metallic moans of protest
As I am slowly lifted up towards the top of the wheel and the moon.
Small bobs of light below look like sprites and faeries, ‘tis a beautiful sight,
And I know they wish to dance with me throughout the night... "

This is a poem I wrote some time ago inspired by a song called 'Kagami' by Kanon Wakeshima (photo). You can listen to it here.

Whenever I listen to it I imagine a Lolita playing at an abandoned carnival. However, after reading a translation of the lyrics it is actually a song to do with Snow White...

I would love to hear any comments on my writing - it is a passion of mine.

Princess Roxy


Welcome To My Kingdom...

flower princess
Originally uploaded by Rio's walk

Welcome to My Dark Divine, an idea I have been mulling over for some time.
This is where I will post any random thoughts or ideas I have - on the world in general, deep topics, people, psychology, fashion (I am in love with Lolita) or just share with you interesting things I have found on the web.

Why is it called 'My Dark Divine'?

I am a princess. I am a modern day princess that must make her way through this dark and lonely world. The only way? To create my own world. THIS is my world - My dark, divine world. I am fascinated by the darker side of nature, and find a beauty to it. If you look hard enough, you can find a beauty in anything and everything too... That is how I wish to live.

Please do comment and send e-mails<3

Princess Roxy